What a week. Monday was amazing and then Tuesday everything went to hell. Let’s start with my boss. We have always gotten along, I’ve known the guy for about four years now. Since I’ve worked at this workplace he’s the only boss I’ve been under. Probably three-quarters of the place can’t stand him, I’ve always had his back even when people I also know outside of work say against him I tell them to get over it and call him my brother-from-another-mother. He decided all of a sudden to start making snide comments to me out of nowhere. This actually started about a week prior to when he really fucked up. I’ve heard of him doing this and many people under him can’t stand him due to this. One girl I know even quit the place because of it. When I really got pissed was when he came up to me and started going on about how supposedly I can’t have Bible study on so it can be heard by others, and he also brought up ‘Jesus music’. Said he should make me put in earphones. I let him know it wasn’t happening. He tried to tell me I was shoving it down people’s throats and I was going to offend people. I asked who complained, he said “no one, but they might”. LOL. Fuck off, dude! I was listening to a deliverance message from my church, Global Vision Bible Church. Vlad Savchuk and Isaiah Saldivar were guest speakers. At the start of service when Pastor’s wife prayed I literally felt the power and felt tension lift, demons leaving the atmosphere, etc. And my anger at a friend, which he deserved but nevertheless was stressful and I hated being mad at him, left. Then Vlad started his sermon, and it was on generational curses. Now deliverance ministers aren’t pussies, they call it out. Up and out in Jesus’ name to be precise. Apparently bossman has issues and felt guilty, because when he came over arguing against it, at one point I said “so, let me get this straight, I am forced to accept the fag flag and ‘open and out’ organization you guys flaunt here, everyone is, like it or not, or else, correct? So then how can you say that Jesus doesn’t also have to be widely accepted, like it or not, or else, especially when this country was founded on Christianity”? He got all quiet then was like “oh, I guess that’s a good argument”. I said “because I’m not arguing I’m telling the truth. Maybe you’ll figure the truth out before you die, I hope so”. He then goes “that can be considered harassment, I’ll have to go to my desk and think this over “. LOL. This from someone who used to go to church and at least have respect for Jesus. Somewhere in there I also told him how many compliments I get on the music I play and also on the church, from both shifts. He’s like “really”? as if he didn’t believe me. To which I said “if you don’t believe me you can feel free to ask around, they’ll tell you”.

I saw him later in the parking lot and he felt like an asshole I could tell, he tried to act normal and make jokes but of course I was still pissed and rightly so. I smiled politely but wasn’t friendly as I normally am. The next night he came over to me close to the end of the shift and apparently he had either remembered it himself, but was most likely reminded of it when he tried to ask someone else if he could get me in trouble or if I was in the right, and he said “I’m thinking about starting stretch breaks back up again. If so make sure you come out on Wednesdays. Remember, I do Worship Wednesday”. LOL again. Yeh, I had forgotten about that myself! He used to play music every day in the hallway, and each Wednesday was worship music. Guess that shut him down! He was hoping I would say something to argue such as “why can you play that but I’m told it’s offensive”? but I wasn’t that stupid. So still he continued the conversation. I kept trying to swing it positive but he still brought up ‘the harassment policy’. I was like “you know what I’m not talking about this place. I’m talking about life in general”. (The conversation was that it’s ok to say any word you want, just don’t say it to cut someone down. Such as saying “that’s such a piece of fucking shit” about a machine or whatever is more than fine. Going to another person and saying “Liza you are a fucking piece of shit” without reason would not be fine. This is common sense, pretty sure everyone knows it. But he apparently has it in his head that I don’t “swear” and am easily offended. That’s the exact opposite of the truth. LOL. I call it just another word, the only bad one is God’s name in vain). I then also told a story that I’ve told in another post here, the kindness post I believe. The one about not hating. He got uncomfortable and walked away when he saw that one I refused to start an argument and two I was going to talk about the Bible as if it’s the most normal conversation to have with him. Yeh, I totally ignored the fact that he invited me to listen to worship music that he plays for all to hear in the hallway when he wanted me to get in trouble for having mine on at all. He didn’t see that one coming. Idiot!

Now let me tell what happened with who we will call ‘my man friend’. I hadn’t seen him for a few days, and Saturday he chose not to go to the rodeo both of us and others were invited to. Says he doesn’t care about that shit and it’s not fun. He’s never even been to one or a horse show either but whatever his loss. I chose to go, obviously. I met up with a mutual friend of ours who he’s jealous of even though he denies it I can tell to a point he is. That friend had his little daughter there and met his sister and her family there, I hung out with them for maybe half an hour at most then just watched the rodeo. Nothing to be jealous of, I assure you. Sunday he called me and asked me if I went and how it was. Conversation went fine and we hung up. Next day I came to work……….he works there also but the shift before mine. He came over to me and hugged me up and rubbed himself all over me. I hugged back. So normal, pretty much. The time from me getting there to when he left was lots of talking and hugging and horsing around. So, normal. The he left and I went for a protein shake and to make coffee. Went back to my work area and had a missed text and call. I called back. He was all worried is something wrong or what I thought it might be when you didn’t answer. I assured him all was well and we talked maybe fifteen minutes and said bye see you tomorrow and such. Normal, again.

The next day I walked in and put my stuff down next to where I knew it was likely I’d be working. Went to put my giant purse away and saw he was working across the isle. So I was coming back through that area and went over and hugged him up. He was cold and rude and was like “can’t you see they’re all over there!?”. I was like “who”? Apparently the lead person was over there, the one from my shift. He hates the guy and vise versa. And as much as he flips his shit if I have any misunderstanding with anyone, when he does it’s supposed to be sympathized with and catered to. Well, if you’re going to tell some people I’m your girlfriend, others we are ‘just friends’, and still others that we don’t hardly know each other, sorry if I get confused sometimes and forget who can know and who cannot know! Also, after you call me on the phone and say things like you said, then are all over me the following day, I didn’t realize I had to look around to ‘see who’s there’ before I give you one tiny hug?! And fyi, when I looked behind the machine to see who it was he was worried about, one was the person he told I’m his girlfriend and whose wife is my friend anyway, and the other yes was the guy he doesn’t trust but the guy wasn’t even looking our direction! Talk about paranoid! And I usually get bitched out when I realize people are against me and I call it out, and I get told I’m being ridiculous……….yet he is scared shitless of this one person so much he will hurt someome he claims to care for to make him believe he barely knows me, and also I’m supposed to change how I act in front of him?! I’d say it’s time they hash it out and get the fuck over it already, I mean for ten years they’ve worked together and may for ten more so time to get over it! Also time to practice what you preach! So the rest of the time he was there that day he was hot and cold. He’s moody anyway so I tried to take it in stride and ignore the attitude. Then right before he left I asked for one more hug and got a cold stare and told I was acting like a little girl who couldn’t have what she wanted. My stomach just turned and I felt so sickened. (I always say I need one more hug and he always gives one, sometimes says something funny too sometimes not but always I get the hug and never rudeness). I walked off to do my job and he called after me he was leaving. I ran after him and made him give me that hug. After that I went to a friend of ours, the one that was at that rodeo, and he advised me to stay away. One thing though that guy was under the impression we were just fuck buddies and I had to set him straight because that’s sure not all that’s been said and been going on. That’s called being a whore, and I’m definitely not that.

So the next day I went in and ignored everyone. Set my things down and went in a corner behind a desk and hid. I saw his back but was unsure if he saw me. Anyway, he needed to know what it’s like to have me there and not have me, so whatever. If you act like I repulse you and don’t want to be acknowledged, don’t be a little bitch when you get what you ask for! Apparently that night he hung out with the friend I had questioned about him and brought up “she came in and didn’t even talk to me”. I found this out the next day, and I pointed out that he was the one in the wrong and he didn’t call me that day when he left, nor did he come after me. Pretty bullshit if you ask me……….

So at this point after work the day I hid I asked my friend that moved across the country and also a friend at work who are Christian with the same beliefs as mine to pray for both of these situations. It’s October, witchcraft month, remember. And the demon church is working overtime. Spiritual Warfare is at the highest this month, especially to those who share about deliverance and the truth of Halloween like I do. So I’m not blind to the fact it’s spiritual warfare at work and that my boss and my friend are pawns in ruining me. Satan always attacks finances and relationships first because he wants you to blame God for these problems and turn away from Him. This is facts from John Ramirez who used to literally be Satan’s son. Not up for debate, it’s what’s going on. But, you cannot tell people this when they don’t think it exists. So, lots of praying between me and my friends that night.

When I’m this upset I can’t think. Can’t eat or sleep much either. So by the next morning I was about to just quit my job. I tried to call my man friend on the way in but got ignored. Not cool. I don’t put up with that from anyone, ever. I got ahold of my Christian friend at work and told her pray one more time. Then I got there, and saw the other friend, the guy who’s friends with us both. He wanted to know what had happened between me and the boss, he didn’t understand when I tried to tell him though. Funny, my whole shift had understood just fine and were irritated with him as well. But, Spiritual Warfare can blind good people from the truth, remember. So my man friend came over to us, pretended he had to give the guy something just to overhear our conversation. He was snippy and rude but apparently gives a shit or wouldn’t have done that. So anyway, I went over to see a girl on their shift who I miss working with and said hey I’ll miss you if I quit but I’m about to give the fuck up. Gave her a two-minute rundown of the two situations and she wasn’t impressed. She wanted me to ask the boss on that shift to come back and work with her, and he’s a cool guy so I said I would. We talk sometimes and when we do it’s not about work much so I feel comfortable around him. I ended up talking to him about all of this, and he sat and listened and said if an opportunity comes up where he can speak on my behalf without saying I vented to him he will. He also asked if I wanted him to speak with my man friend, as he knows him and has for a decade at least, which was super nice of him but I said no and let’s hold off on that and see what happens. We must have talked for over half an hour. I went out to see if Mr. Man Friend was there still but he was gone. I called him, he at least answered this time. I guess our mutual friend had told him he called me a little girl for no reason yet he was acting like a little boy. So he felt like a shithead I hope. Anyway, he was polite……….but I didn’t steer the conversation onto anything too personal so who knows how that may have went. Not sure.

The next morning while getting ready for work I was optimistic but still thinking over the conversations of the previous few days. My mind was calmer, and as I prayed I had one of those things where a thought just pops into my head……….it’s the Holy Spirit talking. It was like………remember the last problem, when you found out the names of the spirits and could call them out the problem was fixed. (See my kindness post, the part about Jezebel and Delilah Spirits). Then I immediately got an urgency to find out what Spirit was operating around my workplace to destroy me. I figured when I got to work I’d ask my friend who I pray with most to help me figure it out, and if I got a second I’d post and ask about it in the online group I’m in that deals with deliverance and who told me last time what Spirits needed to be prayed against. Well, wonder of wonders I didn’t have to wait that long even! When I got in my car I opened up utube to put some music on. I had been listening to a sermon of John Ramirez’s that was on there the night before while walking the dog and it was still up. I was like well whatever that’ll work, as long as I got on some positive noise so it’s not too quiet for the drive. I pressed play……….and Jesus changed the channel. Like literally. To Isaiah Saldivar’s channel. And the teaching was on the Spirit of Leviathan! Five minutes into it and I knew this was what was going on and what the devil was trying to destroy me with. I prayed against it and sent it to other people to hear and do the same. I got to work and yes it was a little awkward but I made it through it. Boss was gone, I was quiet and made my man friend make the first move and was he bitchy well yes of course that’s his nature on the best of days. But he did make sure to be the first to hug, even if it took an hour before he figured out I was not gonna make the first move after the shit storm he caused the other day. I don’t think he was impressed he waited for another one and I didn’t give. But, he needs to learn a lesson.

I had a migraine and also it was slow in my department so I decided to head out after a half day. As I was leaving, Satan tried to attack again. Someone who I’ve refused to hang out with recently because I found out he likes me a little too much and I obviously don’t feel the same texted and asked me to hang out Sunday with him and not sure who else as it just said ‘we are going’. I had thought I got rid of him for good a few weeks before but I guess he didn’t give up yet. Prompted by Satan I’m one hundred percent certain of it. The devil was hoping I’d say that yes I’d go just to piss off my man friend and that that would be the end of that as he has more than once said in a roundabout way he doesn’t want me to and it would cause a big issue if I do. I said ‘no thanks’ and left it at that. Luckily the guy didn’t keep on talking, I definitely wasn’t in the mood for that shit. I got some shopping done, went home, went to bed and forgot about all the drama for the night.

I woke up today and when I started to think about it all I asked my ‘magic eight-ball’ to give me an answer for what to do about all this bullshit. I immediately got the thought to look up Romans 14. No specific verse. As I was reading it I started taking pictures of certain verses that were especially good answers to the problem, but after half a dozen I realized the Holy Spirit gave me the whole book because at least half the verses are ones I could quote to tell me how to handle the problem. It basically says to let bygones be bygones, be respectful of other’s ways and opinions, and not to argue over them. Like God saying “you guys need to just get the fuck over it and get along”. (Well that’s a relief, because last time I asked for help with a man friend I got the answer that though he wants to he’s mentally unable to accept having any kind of relationship and never would be able to. I had to go to mass deliverance and break a soul tie. It was super fucked up and sad. I was given Song Of Solomon 4:12 in that case and had to read the whole………. thankfully short……….chapter to be sure I had the right context. Then so much disappointment I had to deal with, it was a pretty awful time).

So anyway, I’m sure there will be a bit more awkwardness……….but also sure it will work out fine……….below I have copy and pasted the whole chapter 14 of the book of Romans, both the KJV and NIV. If you aren’t used to Bibles or English isn’t your first language read the NIV. Myself I like to read KJV then cross-reference by reading NIV. I get the most understanding that way. (Any typos on this part aren’t my fault as it’s copy/pasted!)

Romans 14 KJV

14 Him that is weak in the faith receive ye, but not to doubtful disputations.

² For one believeth that he may eat all things: another, who is weak, eateth herbs.

³ Let not him that eateth despise him that eateth not; and let not him which eateth not judge him that eateth: for God hath received him.

⁴ Who art thou that judgest another man’s servant? to his own master he standeth or falleth. Yea, he shall be holden up: for God is able to make him stand.

⁵ One man esteemeth one day above another: another esteemeth every day alike. Let every man be fully persuaded in his own mind.

⁶ He that regardeth the day, regardeth it unto the Lord; and he that regardeth not the day, to the Lord he doth not regard it. He that eateth, eateth to the Lord, for he giveth God thanks; and he that eateth not, to the Lord he eateth not, and giveth God thanks.

⁷ For none of us liveth to himself, and no man dieth to himself.

⁸ For whether we live, we live unto the Lord; and whether we die, we die unto the Lord: whether we live therefore, or die, we are the Lord’s.

⁹ For to this end Christ both died, and rose, and revived, that he might be Lord both of the dead and living.

¹⁰ But why dost thou judge thy brother? or why dost thou set at nought thy brother? for we shall all stand before the judgment seat of Christ.

¹¹ For it is written, As I live, saith the Lord, every knee shall bow to me, and every tongue shall confess to God.

¹² So then every one of us shall give account of himself to God.

¹³ Let us not therefore judge one another any more: but judge this rather, that no man put a stumblingblock or an occasion to fall in his brother’s way.

¹⁴ I know, and am persuaded by the Lord Jesus, that there is nothing unclean of itself: but to him that esteemeth any thing to be unclean, to him it is unclean.

¹⁵ But if thy brother be grieved with thy meat, now walkest thou not charitably. Destroy not him with thy meat, for whom Christ died.

¹⁶ Let not then your good be evil spoken of:

¹⁷ For the kingdom of God is not meat and drink; but righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost.

¹⁸ For he that in these things serveth Christ is acceptable to God, and approved of men.

¹⁹ Let us therefore follow after the things which make for peace, and things wherewith one may edify another.

²⁰ For meat destroy not the work of God. All things indeed are pure; but it is evil for that man who eateth with offence.

²¹ It is good neither to eat flesh, nor to drink wine, nor any thing whereby thy brother stumbleth, or is offended, or is made weak.

²² Hast thou faith? have it to thyself before God. Happy is he that condemneth not himself in that thing which he alloweth.

²³ And he that doubteth is damned if he eat, because he eateth not of faith: for whatsoever is not of faith is sin.

Romans 14 NIV

14 Accept the one whose faith is weak,^(A) without quarreling over disputable matters. ² One person’s faith allows them to eat anything, but another, whose faith is weak, eats only vegetables.^(B) 3 The one who eats everything must not treat with contempt^(C) the one who does not, and the one who does not eat everything must not judge^(D) the one who does, for God has accepted them. ⁴ Who are you to judge someone else’s servant?^(E) To their own master, servants stand or fall. And they will stand, for the Lord is able to make them stand.

⁵ One person considers one day more sacred than another;^(F) another considers every day alike. Each of them should be fully convinced in their own mind. ⁶ Whoever regards one day as special does so to the Lord. Whoever eats meat does so to the Lord, for they give thanks to God;^(G) and whoever abstains does so to the Lord and gives thanks to God. ⁷ For none of us lives for ourselves alone,^(H) and none of us dies for ourselves alone. ⁸ If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.^(I) 9 For this very reason, Christ died and returned to life^(J) so that he might be the Lord of both the dead and the living.^(K)

¹⁰ You, then, why do you judge your brother or sister^[a]? Or why do you treat them with contempt?^(L) For we will all stand before God’s judgment seat.^(M) 11 It is written:

“‘As surely as I live,’^(N) says the Lord,
‘every knee will bow before me;
    every tongue will acknowledge God.’”^[b](O)

¹² So then, each of us will give an account of ourselves to God.^(P)

¹³ Therefore let us stop passing judgment^(Q) on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in the way of a brother or sister.^(R) 14 I am convinced, being fully persuaded in the Lord Jesus, that nothing is unclean in itself.^(S) But if anyone regards something as unclean, then for that person it is unclean.^(T) 15 If your brother or sister is distressed because of what you eat, you are no longer acting in love.^(U) Do not by your eating destroy someone for whom Christ died.^(V) 16 Therefore do not let what you know is good be spoken of as evil.^(W) 17 For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking,^(X) but of righteousness, peace^(Y) and joy in the Holy Spirit,^(Z) 18 because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God and receives human approval.^(AA)

¹⁹ Let us therefore make every effort to do what leads to peace^(AB) and to mutual edification.^(AC) 20 Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food.^(AD) All food is clean,^(AE) but it is wrong for a person to eat anything that causes someone else to stumble.^(AF) 21 It is better not to eat meat or drink wine or to do anything else that will cause your brother or sister to fall.^(AG)

²² So whatever you believe about these things keep between yourself and God. Blessed is the one who does not condemn^(AH) himself by what he approves. ²³ But whoever has doubts^(AI) is condemned if they eat, because their eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin.