I’m a hugger. Big time. Always have been……….although when I was younger I hugged my pony rather than people……….this being due to living with a terrible dad who thinks things like if they hug you it appears sexual to others. Weird, and child abuse in a way too. But, this is what goes on in people’s minds when they have a spirit of religion rather than a relationship with Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. (In case you’re one of those weird fucks, a little fyi for ya…………this can be cast out in Jesus’ name, same as any bad spirit).

This past summer the satanic church of South Africa had one of its founders turn to Jesus. How? It started with a hug he received from a woman he later found out was a Christian.

I had the worst day I’ve had in weeks today. It was spiritual warfare without a doubt, but it was definitely getting to me. Of course I prayed through it, but I was in tears, for real. I went to talk with a friend about it, and a bit later got a long hug from him. I did instantly feel better. Knowing someone else gives a shit releases endorphins I suppose.

My first instinct when I see a friend that I am close to is to hug them, and it doesn’t matter if they’re male or female because it’s not like that……….it’s not ‘that kind’ of hug. I feel the older I get the more I’m like this. It just hit me today……….the fact I’m like that. I thought about it after I noticed how much better I felt after the long hug today while I was so miserable, and I thought it was new but then remembered hugging on the pony when I was younger and so I guess it’s always been inside hiding, a hidden gift that had to be unlocked I guess is a good way to word it. Since I got in tune with the Holy Spirit rather than just being ‘regular (aka lukewarm) Christian’ is when I started hugging more often, and more importantly not just hugging people back but being the one to initiate it.

Well, it makes at least some sense, right? Since we are supposed to love one another and all that………..and they say once the Holy Spirit takes up residence in you you will see change take place. I guess this is one of the changes in me, and most likely Christ’s love working through me to reach others. Hopefully it gets to someone like that woman’s hug who changed the satanic priest into a Christian. That would be awesome. Anyhow, I know it’s a God thing, and here is how I know……….

The whole reason I was in a bad mood was because of how disgustingly rude someone was to me……….a friend but yeh the man’s got big issues……….about hugging. And no need here for the readers I know in person to let their imagination run wild and assume shit, cuz u will without a doubt guess wrong about either the who or the what or both………. So then after that and I was feeling like shit and got a hug from someone who is a friend to both me and Mr. Issues I realized it’s not the hugs that are a problem, it’s some of the people who receive them, because I know hugs make people feel better, as I wouldn’t have after I got this one if that isn’t so. And then a few hours later a woman I know sent me that video of the satanic priest whose life was changed by a hug. I had seen that come up a couple of months ago on Isaiah Saldivar’s posts, never got to watching it, and forgot all about it. The fact she sent it today at that time was no coincidence, it was totally God saying to me “keep doing what you’re doing, you aren’t the one in the wrong here”. Now I just pray Mr. Issues can work through the issue in his head that caused his comment to begin with, but at least I have confirmation it’s him not me. I of course in the back of my brain knew this all along, but Satan was trying to plant seeds of doubt……….that’s what I meant when I referred to today as spiritual warfare. Satan doesn’t like me having happiness and is trying his best to take it from me, I prayed about it, and I guess I got my answer……….I’d give more detail but, that’s my business not the whole world’s.

Apparently, there’s knowledge and a silver lining to be found in even the worst of days, because I sure feel better now. I was able to gain another testimonial to how God is always speaking to us, and never to discount someone or something as it could be sent from above. Actually come to think of it, if you read my post on here titled ‘A Supernatural Something ‘, the person who is God’s messenger to me in that post is the one who made me feel like shit today. And once again, God used that person, in a roundabout way, to get a message to me. Guess ditching the friendship would be a bad move! One Satan would rejoice in……….not cool! One thing’s certain, I won’t ever stop the hugs from flowing. Not after the weirdness of today and this revelation I’ve had about them. They’re heavenly becuause they’re sent from Heaven. Now, how about we all stop being paranoid and get close enough to hug rather than purposely making riffs and divides that can never be healed except for with the hugs we refuse to give and receive? That is all. Be blessed in Jesus’ name, mofos. Bye-bye til the next post……….